AUTHOR: J DATE: 12:48:00 AM ----- BODY: Well... I think the initial shock has worn off. Please excuse my outburst the other day... but the potential to not have any income whatsoever, first what I thought, and even the still possibility of not having it after January... took over my fingers, and the result is what you see below this. Im still going through a lot of the emotions I mentioned before... but theyve settled to the point I can manage. My mother told me the other day that shes been crying a little... cause it wears heavy on her, that neither of her kids are in very good shape right now. My sisters predicament is a long one and only relates to mine, in having trouble paying the bills. She also has a family to provide for, unlike me... taking care of two people I would kill you all for, my niece and nephew. Moms just sad it seems neither of her children can seem to catch a break... shes doing what a mom does, worry. Today... well since its past midnight, now yesterday was very nice. Thanksgiving provided a much needed break, if you wanna call it that, from earlier this week. Excellent food (since my moms the best cook in the world, nyah)... surrounded by family... and just a little gorging... made the day a good day, in my opinion. Hopefully I can carry some of that with me for the next few days... cause I have a plan. I have a plan to keep myself afloat... two business-like relatives of mine listened to what Im thinking about, and both agreed it was good and could definitely work. No details yet... as Im still working out the kinks, and its not some spectacular new idea no ones ever thought of. Its actually quite common... and its really all I got at the moment. The hamster is running his wheel in my head... lets hope he has some good endurance.

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