AUTHOR: J DATE: 4:23:00 PM ----- BODY: Not too long ago... well it might have been a while ago actually... I cant remember cause I dont keep an archive of my posts. Anyway, whenever it was... I remember a post I did going on this long winded rant of how I hadnt actually drawn anything in a very long time... since before I graduated college even. I, in turn, decided to go back home and uncover and undust (is that a word) my enormous 6" long by 4" high art table my father built me four score and a couple years ago. I did, and that same amount of time ago... set it up in my apartment... The funny thing is... ever since that day, all its been doing is sitting there. I dont know where all the energy and motivation I had to get it, and put it back together, went?! Its not like I dont have the desire to sit down and hash something out... just seems desire isnt quite enough for me to do it yet. Id even used some freelance money and bought several kinds of supplies to aid in the process... a 24 piece set of graphic pencils, a 96 color set of colored pencils, a 24 color set of fine and wide tipped markers, to be exact. Well... I didnt actually use freelance money for all of it... I got the colored pencils with one of my, now maxed, credit cards... but anyway. Seems I just havent had that jolt of inspriation that drags me over to the table to get started yet. I sometimes feel weird as well... as here I am with this huge custom art table, and I dont use it... or at least havent yet. Ive always felt priveleged to have that thing. Right now all it does is make my apartment seem a little more filled. Im hoping one day soon... that before mentioned jolt of uninhibited inspiration hits me soon, cause it was true then as its true now... I havent drawn anything in a long time.

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